I’m a little uncomfortable with today’s song, to be honest.
It’s not the song’s fault. I love this song. I love it in several forms, performed by a broad range of performers. That’s the problem, really. Everyone — everyone — does this damn song. Hell, I’ve performed it in public several times. I went through a period when I was singing it quite a lot, and then…well, somewhere along the line I lost the song.
I’m not sure how to explain it. I just couldn’t sing the song anymore. It got empty and weird for me, a sort of pro-forma note assembly that just didn’t work. I had, right around that time, heard a version performed by a friend that just blew me away. I heard him sing it, and I…couldn’t, anymore. I couldn’t make it real the way he had, in that moment, made it real. I came to loathe the sound of my own voice singing these words and this tune. I couldn’t feel it right, and it just stopped being music for me, so I let it go.
Today, as I was looking over the list of songs already covered for the challenge and the list of songs yet to cover, I noticed that I had put it on the list of “songs to do if you can’t do anything else.” I had looked around and found some guitar tab for it that was within my limited abilities, and I could do it. There was no real reason not to do it. It was an excuse to mess around with the new mic and with mixing my electric/acoustic guitar, so it was on the list.
For whatever reason, today I tried it. I played this damn thing until my wrists and fingers couldn’t work anymore and my voice broke, and for a few seconds at a time, sometimes in the middle of a crap take that I couldn’t use, I could almost feel the music again.